I know nobody cares what I think, but so what :D I’ll still put a piece of my mind out there. Read it or just skip it.
It all is clearly in my mind, put putting it as words or writing makes it messy and long…
So. I have this complex feeling about myself. One day I love everything and other days it’s just all shitty and fuck it. (So this makes me a normal girl)
But in the end, I’m so confident about myself that I post my pictures and show of my style and my makeup. Shit, I think I love the way I look?! I’m fat, not a skinny girl. But I like my lady lumps and I like my style. Sometimes I feel like “If only I were skinny, everything would be better.” Well I have felt like that since little kid when I was bullied and called names for being fat.
But in life, you must make things happen to yourself. Standing in the corner and waiting for someone to notice and comfort you is not going to fix things.
I have had shit happen in my life but worrying about that is not gonna make it better. I know I’m still not okay with everything. But I do know what is GREAT in my life and I’m loving it. Not every day can be sunny, there will be clouds and rain, sometimes there will be storms. But standing still, staying strong is the way to go.
I am still depressed, fat and I have some anxiety problems. I have problems deciding do I think too much of myself or too little. I’m not perfect and I don’t know what future will bring. But I know that I can make it happen, I might be sick or just paranoid. I don’t seek attention with these thoughts but I seek to be in peace with me.
So yeh, I do talk sometimes. And when I talk, I talk A LOT.